Think Pink

Okay, so this is a late post from Ate Fatima's/ Amii's Debut last January 18 held at Ginazel's! The color theme was pink and green and there's no doubt that I'm going to wear in pink since I have lotsa in that color! Happy Birthday again Ate Fatima! You will always be my idol back in elementary because she's so smart, talened and all  plus I will never forget your craziness back then! Super close kasi ng parents and kapatid namin. We are also close, okay! Haha. Time flies really fast. I wish you all happiness in life! <3

I'm going to share something I got from my tumblr timeline. I hope you like this post! Have a happy Monday to you all! :)

“You spent six months wondering if it was your fault. No, it wasn’t. It never was. I know you’re tired of telling yourself goodnight and buying flowers to put on your desk to feel special. It’s fucking scary to let someone in when the fence you’ve built around your heart just started growing jasmine and you were about to paint that fence pink. If you like it there, you don’t have to knock it down. Just let someone talk to you through it until you’re ready. I know you’re waiting for someone to ask you deep questions or how you got that scar on your forehead. You’re a hopeless romantic, you’re waiting for that movie love…anything short of that, you are disappointed. If I could find someone that can look past your blue eyes and yearn to know everything about you, I think you might feel a little more at home. But you don’t know where home is and a man with a soft touch won’t help you find it right away. Go paint the fence around your heart pink and tell yourself that you are beautiful before you fall asleep. Because you spent six months wondering if it was your fault and I won’t let you spend another day wondering if you are someone’s first thought in the morning. You are mine and mine you will be until a man is willing to cross the universe for you. That’s what you deserve.”

(via poignantic)

Love,

Patricia <3

Nostalgic Truth

This is what I wore last Batangas City fiesta. I think I still need a week for me to finally wear shoes again. Hopefully. I also think of not considering short hair anymore ( long hair and don't care feeling maybe ). I will just cut my hair when I get my dream corporate job in the future ( trim trim muna ako ngayon haha )  The last time I bought myself a bag was 3 years ago! I bought it in the same day, January 16! Lol. I will never forget what my lola told me recently, "Mag-aral ka pa ng mabuti para mabili mo luho mo." Ughhhhh. Seriously, I was moved like omg nakakaguilty na magastos nga ako sa bagay bagay pero sobrang kuripot in real life.  It's like I always talk of same things all over again but sometimes I still tend to forget. I promise to be wiser this time, I mean in all aspects of life. 

Nostalgia (n) - pleasure and sadness that is caused by remembering something from the past and wishing that you could experience it again

  Have you ever missed of wishing on dandelions? Those are the nights you used to count the stars through your passionate eyes in the glimmer of moonlight. 

4 years from now, you're going to look back in your old planner. You will notice how your black pen gone so far. You will be bombarded by the city lights that you've always been dreaming of. But what keeps you from looking back to those old polaroid pictures? It won't simply happen again like duh just no pls. You will walk into your room and find the missing piece of your old battle ship leggo that you didn't finish 10 years ago. You will accidentally click your remote control and be disappointed of random cartoon series that's actually senseless compared to Kid's Next Door, Courage the cowardly dog, Powerpuff Girls, Baby Looney Tunes and Totally Spice Girls. The truth is, you will always be a kid in your fucking heart. You will never forget your first collection of barbie dolls from several puppy eyes you showed to your mom last Christmas. I actually miss having a bath splash in my neighbor that's also my cousin like I never become worried of life in my whole life. My scars will always be the sign of my pride. I'm always proud of myself. If I'm going to choose from beginning, middle and end. It will always be the middle. Who would forget the first time you giggled from your cutie crush? WOAH. HAHAHA. How about those love letters you kept in your secret box? I can't breathe! Those bouquet of roses you got from valentines and even on normal days <3 It's not illegal that's actually sweet. I have this thought of "You're not a girl if you didn't read she's dating the gangster, before." Am I right? You're lucky if you got a time of boredom. I have read that once you get bored, you have to savor it for a moment. You will find peace on thinking of nothing but the thought of it. When do you feel nostalgic? It's when your old favorite song suddenly played in the middle of nowhere or maybe in your car stereo. Do you still remember those pinky promises you made when you're happy? Can you still recall those decisions you made when you were angry? Regrets. You will be sorry of things you didn't do rather than the things you did. I wish all people never left things unsaid in the first place. I wish I played more in the past. I hope of being a 5 year old girl again and never think of " I wanna be old so that I can buy this and this ". 

  I pray of nothing but the best. Whatever it is, things will never be the same no matter how many times we chase chances. Chances are everywhere but change is the only permanent thing in this world. I hope kids won't cope so much what's in present. I will always plead for them to hold pencils and crayons first. 

Love,

Patricia <3

OH YOU TWERK? BITCH I VOGUE!

Hello everyone! I still have two drafts for my blog but I chose to publish the newest one because I'm gonna write a topic related to it in a deep constellation of thoughts once again. I opted for a black and white outfit because I feel so pro today! I feel so Liz Uy like just wearing jeans and unexpected shoesies ( but in my case, I still can't wear a pair of freaking shoes so yeah slippers will fcking do. HAHAHA. I'm so annoyed bc i'm suffering for a month already. Konting unawa pls. ) Don't you love my bag?? :) :) It's from Girbaud! I think if you're gonna buy a designer bag especially if you'll use your own bucks for it, you should invest first for an everyday black bag. It has a resemblance with a chanel bag too!  I swear to take care of this even until I had my kids and hubby. HAHAHA, okay that's oa. Yay, but seriously i'm so obsess to it like I didn't let go of it from the first time I held it. There's this strong affection thooo! >:)< 

  The things you ever wanted, you want for now or you'll surely want? I've always been confused of past, present and future.

  

  There are three things I always think of everytime I will enter the doors of buses: stuffs I left home, ticket and the place I will travel. What keeps you from going? I used to dream of becoming a teacher when I was a young dork. My mind changed that I've liked to become a doctor. As the large hand of the clock rotates with the short one, I forgot the essence of living. Time will come that you have to decide for what will you do in the future. I studied what I love, fashion. It talks about clothes, brands, travel, art and business. I thought I will end up studying tourism but sometimes, what you've planned isn't going to happen. Unplanned moments can be bad or good. I like unplanned things because  it shows that God is the only person who rules everything in our lives. You can ignore things but you can't move on from it easily. Life goes on to enjoy what's in present. A lot of people have told me, "I like what's in your mind. You're too cool to have so many plans in life to be so much guided in the path you'll take."  I'm grateful of myself because I think and write a lot. I like everything. I want to have different works in the coming years. I don't want to settle in a timid place in a daily routine instead of travelling to a different kind of life, meeting wonderful people, doing favors to help sincerely and more. This blogpost isn't enough to discuss everything that I want in future like I so much swear. But for me, my only dream is to touch people's lives in a good way. I wonder how is it fun or moving if I become a bartender in a bar, serving broken hearted people sobbing from their heartbreaks and tell, "For every rose that withers and dies, another blooms in its stead. You may have to cut that sentence, but there will be an even better one to replace it. I promise." 

Love,

Patricia <3

Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus

Anyeonghaseyo!! Aside from being a huge fan of American people, Koreans are definitely next to my list. Yay. I told in my blog before that I wanted to have a Korean jowawakels if I meet one. This time I hitting for a chinese! *whistles whistles to Henry Sy's relatives with the same age or a year ahead* I've been thinking so hard about United Colors of Benetton!  Okay. I'm just kidding like all tthe time. Hahaha. I wore this outfit from a usual Sunday and midterm practice in PE. I'm so happy because I got to put liquid eyeliners again! I used to hate make-ups when I was young but when I discover the glam in it, totally amazing. I love how fearless I am when it comes in wearing prints on print. I'm always fearless in fashion anyway so what's the point of emphasizing things, right? Nobody can stop me. Hihihi.

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Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus

  Opposite poles attract. Men are for women; Women are for men. Don't get me wrong about what I'll say but to be honest, it's all in the heart-- love.

  From the ancient times, men are superior than women. The debate about the two never fades. Why did God create man first before a woman? I can't blame myself for being bias because I'm a woman. I believe that the second creations are always the best. The first will always be a draft of perfection. Actually I despise all of them. I mean, how is it awful that they never had a wishful thinking of swallowing by the ground whenever we receive our monthly visit? They're obviously stupid. They never realize the feeling of being a girl at all. They're truly unfair. On situations like there's a bad guy with a collection of girls, why is it cute and attractive to many? They always see girls as stubborn and hard-headed individuals. The feeling is mutual. On the brighter side, we are all unique. I just wondered, if you're unique, I'm also one so what's the real point about the true meaning of UNIQUENESS when we're all? I hope you're getting me.  We have different point of views in life. I somehow adore dudes out there. I'm always amaze because they've mastered the skills in ignoring things and not over-thinking about everything. I like it when a guy's good in Math. I'm also good in Algebra anyway so we're meant to be in a way lol. I always wonder how it feels to get kilig when you're actually a guy. I mean do they laugh and scream so hard when they receive sweet messages from girls? Do they hit their bestfriend on their shoulders or pinch the arms of their siblings when a girl they like agreed to him that he can officially ask her out? DO THEY? They will just simply smile or be calm at the moment. I doubt if guys totally do what I've wondered. Lol. I like seeing couples, particularly when a guy immediately pulls the girl on his side if there's a vehicle near her when actually it's not. It's a major turn on when a guy loves to read. I salute guys who always sing lovely songs for their girls just to make the girl shiver in a good way. I can't disagree that girls aren't freak because we really are. We seek for attention and care. We need understanding and just have a companion whenever we tell our stories. It's a tickle in pink aura when guys simply ask how's the day. Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus because we're all completely different to each other. I can never tell what's the big deal about this but from what I've seen so far, it all depends in the two people. 

Love,

Patricia <3

  

Dear 16-year-old-me, ( Blog version )

  

This dress is definitely one of my favorite because it never gets old. It was a gift from my Ate Paula in Canada. I'm a big fan of the brand because yeah it's too cozy. I remembered when my other auntie asked me, "Mukha bang luma? Ayos lang. Levi's naman!".  Pink is also the lucky color of the year. I want to start 2014 in girly way. I collect dresses so bad but it's not enough ( I think so? Haha ) that's why I try my ootd not to look old as much as possible. Just practice the Mix and Match skills and you'll eventually love it. I'll share a letter for myself in my blog. I started writing one back in Fourth year in my trusted journal. Now, i'm sharing it online. It's not really the same because the new one I wrote in the journal is far way different to this. I hope you'll touch by this. Thanks for dropping by tho! :) :)

Dear 16-year-old-me, ( Blog version )

There's a riot inside my stomach. A vision nothing but passion. I'm still confused of everything. I always ask myself, "Why is it we can't have everything in this world?" To overthink is my past time. I think of people, solution for traffic-is-a-mess feeling, the real end of studying, wanderlust, the old couple I saw earlier passing by the calm road in their vintage bicycle as I chase my breath: Everything, simple as that. In few more months, my age will be changed into a higher number. They say, age is just a number. It is not actually. Age is accompanied by time. Time is one of my mentor in life. I realized how far I've walked in a nowhere journey. They say people come and go. I don't really care about it. I'm a huge fan of spending myself a me-time. I think, a human's biggest escape is to forget about the world for awhile. Throw all the worries that's irritating all the hell out of us. Know yourself, first. Find what really interests you. When you finally found that thing? Love and commit yourself with it. One of my biggest rule in life is to tell the truth. If we start lying, we are already in trouble. I remembered what my mom told me. She said it's hard to lie because of conscience. She also added that it's too awkward for her. Last thing? What's the good point of lying if in the end we'll receive a bad karma? We are full of imperfection. It bores me when I see people who are so perfect. I mean, what's the tricky thrill behind them? No regrets, just love. Take chances. Don't stop from learning and figuring things in this world. Pain is inevitable because how are we going to distinguish sad experiences from wonderful events in our lives. The only permanent thing in this world is change. Life goes on. Acceptance is a must. Trust your guts. Life is short to remove the usb safely because I believe something's gonna arise again in time through the advance technology. Appreciate what's in present. Don't cling from the past. Prepare for the future. Always put your best foot forward in everything you do. Share your blessings to people. Be good as much as you can. After all, decisions determine our destiny. In the end, a cup of coffee and a book of mystery is my kind of comfort. Our comfort is where our hearts are tamed with silency. My last words will be, " Never stop dreaming. Love what will make you the happiest. Ignore the hates. Laugh it off. Work for the Jewish Carpenter, Jesus Christ.".

Love,

Patricia <3

Fearless Fashion: Trust your guts

Finally I got to take ootd's again. It's been awhile because I felt lazy, I was busy ( hmmm really? Haha ) and oh sorry no more reason. I went for a Fridate with my college friends. We watched Girl Boy Bakla Tomboy and ofcourse, it's funny. Haha. We also stayed near the church to make tambay ( sorry Lord :( Just being honesto ). Having the keen observer heart in me, I noticed a man wearing a white suit or tuxedo ( Idrk what's the difference, just correct me if you have time, lol ). I asked my friends, "Huh? Yun kaya yung groom?" Monie answered, "Hindi siya yung broom." Lol!! Others said, "Baka ninong or tatay?" But I have this big feeling that, "No. Sobrang ayos siya and nasesense ko talaga." We decided to watch the wedding since we're  nowhere to go. Woah. I was right!! Siya nga yung groom. Para kasing medyo oldies na hindi that's why I doubted. Okay, why did I tell about these in the first place? Most of the time, we people should trust our instincts. That's all thankyou. Lol. I won't elaborate it that much because  I don't know how will I write it here. I just miss having a reflection notebook from our Values Education subject ( Naks! Ang bait ko talaga! ). I remembered what I saw from tumblr weeks ago. "My thoughts are like constellations I can't fathom". This is so me. This 2014, I will try my really best to write deep compositions. Ahhhh. My favorite local tumblr writer is Erika Rabara. She's so gorg and a good writer. I will train myself next blogpost. Stay tuned because I will add some drama. Haha. I thought of wearing jeans again, sharjah top given by my lola, bag from my lola again ( okay. Again isn't her name ah! Haha) and flat sandals because of my foot problem. I can't wait to wear my shoesies!! Big thanks to my awesome friend, Monieminaj for taking my ootd photos. I had a great time with you guys, forever and ever. Sana maging cpa na tayo. Tagal eh. Haha. Thanks for dropping by!

Love,

Patricia <3

New Year's resolution 2014

This is one of my traditional blogpost ever since I started blogging back in 2011. I can't believe it's my third already. Time flies really fast. 

1. Sleep/ Health/ Take care of myself

- 2013 is definitely a rough year but I learned so many things. I realize how important life is. This time, I will really push myself into a different level of healthy lifestyle. I want to gain so much inches for real. I want to have a white skin. Everything actually! HAHAHA. I promise not to stay that late also because of scroll scroll addiction in tumblr, twitter and IG! I don't visit fb that much. I just watched the VSFS 2013 and I think I'm gonna do things in hardcore this time. 

2. Unfollow several accounts in IG.

- I follow a lot of celebrities and fashion expert. I realized sometimes it's better to be clueless after all they're just a waste of time. Lol.

3. Get my dream final grades in Accounting. 

- According to candymag, it's better to be particular when it comes to new year's resolution so that you won't lose your track. Ofcourse, Accounting will never be easy unless I put my overall dedication and heart in it. I know, I can do it because what I think is what I become. :) #CheerYourself

4. UHM ASDFGHKL HAHAHA 

- I won't elaborate it that much because I don't like. This will serve as my code for it. Haha. I will just save it all to myself. :)

5. Be money wise. Don't buy clothes anymore. Please. Just please. #Impossible

- haha. Imagine how I'm so kuripot when it comes to buying myself a ten-peso palamig but when I see a hot stuff? Ugh unstoppable. Pero eto na talaga. Etong eto na. Kailangan ko na mag-ipon para sa family, future business and everything. Naks. I speak like an adult in this resolution. =))

6. Start something that will give me extra money. :)

- 2013 is the only year I didn't sell something to my friends hahaha. I'm still thinking of good products. I will be extra smart this time! hahaha. Thanks  to my course. 

7. Books

- Last year, I read a lot! This year I want more. Nagsisisi ako nung bata ako na hindi ako nakinig na magbasa at magbasa. Anyway, uso bumawi. :D

8. Get back to my sketches

- My camera roll is consist of selfies, blogger pictures and yes sketches!! Too bad I neglected all of them this season. Definitely one of my stress reliever in life. I'll come back, soon! :D

9. Find another discovery

- This is what I love about myself. I don't stop searching for things that are really interested. I'm looking for something like crafts I would settle or focus on in a long time. Hahaha. Idrk what's next but I always relate all of them to make a huge oohmp someday. Something that will conquer the world. Weird.

10. Avoid insta-shame. Be yourself. Yolo. Make things that will make myself and others happy.

- I really admire Cara for being the fearless woman on Earth. Shyness and Consciousness will never help us in growing and finding stuffs for a lifetime. BE WHO YOU ARE AND SAY WHAT YOU FEEL. 

Love,

Patricia <3