Forever Shades of Gray

 

 No More Filler Guys: Why You Should Wait For The One You Deserve

                     Sometimes that last person to whom we want to listen is our mother. How is she always right? Why does she always know what we don’t want to hear but absolutely need to?

                   Some of the best advice my mom has ever given me is in regard to what she calls “man space.” This is the little corner of your brain (or massive corner) that whichever males are in your life at the time fill.

                    This person or persons is not your boyfriend, and probably has no intention to ever being that.

                Mom would always say, “Clear your man space!” or “Does he really deserve your man space?” While I was always annoyed at the time when she said these things, looking back, she was so right.

            Why is it that we must always have someone to fill that spot? Our generation is so accustomed to instant gratification, and we do a hell of a lot of settling just so we don’t have to be alone.

                 Well, the space in our minds should be a five-star hotel, in which no one can live until they deserve it.

                 In the past, I know I have wasted so much brainpower on boys who never even deserved a second glance. I did this simply because I didn’t want to be alone.

               Don’t get me wrong; it’s nice to have someone to text at midnight or drunk call when you don’t want to walk home alone.

             But, why? This person has no intention of staying until morning, let alone learning your name and favorite kind of ice cream.

                Let’s face it: As females, it’s in our DNA to care — that’s just what we do. We are creatures of emotion and this is usually what gets us into trouble. We care too much about someone who doesn’t feel the same way about us.

             We wrap our heads around the thought that maybe, this man could turn into more. Or, maybe, he will change tomorrow. Or, maybe, after one more night, he will start to care more.

          These things most likely won’t happen. “Man space” should never be filled until it is with someone who truly deserves to be there.

            It’s hard to figure out how to be on your own without any sort of guy to validate you or give you attention. But, why do we even want attention from these people?

            Why not spend your time with your girls and not worry about whether someone will call you or maybe like your Instagram picture. It’s not worth it.

            Males treat females how they do because females enable them to do so. It’s time to mix that up; don’t let anyone in until he or she deserves to be there.

           Chances are, once you find the right guy, you will be thankful that you don’t have suitcases full of man baggage to carry along with you.

         There’s even a chance that you are missing out on the right one because your brain is too focused on the wrong ones. It is now time to do some mental cleaning and decide who’s really meant to be in your brain.

            I look back and think about all the times my friends and I were focused on someone who was not worth it. That time could have been such better spent.

           Instead of wallowing in the uncertainty of why he doesn’t like you or whom he may be with, we could do ourselves a favor by not getting involved in the first place.

           Instead of self-doubt, let’s make the change to self-respect. Get it into your head that you are strong, smart and wonderful. The right person will see that and he will be way more interested in filling more than just your “man space.”

(c) Elite Daily

    Hi readers! Again, I just had to shout out my love for color gray! I haven't read the book nor watch the movie. I'm not yet 18! I don't have time to read books as well! If you only knew guys how many books I've wasted or left hanging in my desk! Tsk. Hahaha. If I can marry this color, I really would! So much love!!! You know what to give for my birthday!!!!! Anything in gray but again, make ups are the best-est gift you can give to me. Nyx, Elf and if you have the budget, okay don't be shy of giving Revlon, Mac, Etude or Face Shop. Awwwww. <3 Matchy matchy top and pants from Papa, Sling bag from Mama Edios and Mary Janes from Primadonna. Thanks again Tony and Jackey for my hair!!! 3 years and counting hahaha and yes say yes to bangs!! February went so fast. I'm getting older!! No way!!! Some people still notice me as a high school student and others ask if I have my job already. What to believe? Lol. Sending you all my virtual hugs for still visiting my baby blog! :)

Love,

Patricia <3 

Gray and Green

 

      Hallelujiah! Long live!!! Finally!!! I got to blog this time!!!!! I'm so happyyyyyy!!! Since I entered 2nd year college, I never had the time to blog anymore. I used to wake up thinking of fashion and now I'm like how am I going to survive school this  week, day or tomorrow. I swear, I still ask myself, of all the courses out there, WHY ACCOUNTANCY. WHY. Again, accountancy isn't about Math because if it's Math, it can easily be studied with tears but the analyzation of financial problems is more than what an accountancy student can imagine! :( I gained so much weight last year that's why I started 2015 in a healthy way. Every morning or other morning of the week as long as I don't have 7am classes, I do work out. I never thought Zumba could bring so much fun at relaxation. Once I get my free time, I promise to blog for more. As of now, I'm in the crucial part of my life where the qualifying exams are about to happen this summer. Please include me in your prayers. Thank you!!! I opted to my Vern style with my favorite colors in the world, Gray and Green! I love gray in all edges. I love green on dark variations only. Sometimes, I crazily ask myself why can't I marry a color. Lol. I love gray!!!!!!!!! I'll die for it!!!!!! I love gray!!!!!! I don't know why!!!!!! Happy Valentines to everyone! Hope you're having a great time with the people you love! Don't forget to thank God for all the blessings he has given! 

Love,

Patricia <3

 

Year ender

     Hiiii readers! Well, obviously this will be my last blogpost for 2014! I can't believe it that in few hours we have to face another year of wonderful life. It's December 31 and if you're currently working on the office, ah! You'll have premium on your payroll and it's where the accountants do the adjusting entries for the ending inventory! OMG. HAHAHA. Here's what I wore last Christmas. We usually celebrate in my father's side since birth haha! Afterwards we go to Soro-soro Ibaba where the team Bagui mostly live! Hint: In few months, we'll move out to that place so right now I'm savoring Sta. Rita's neverending traffic. Lol. Couldn't be more thankful to all the relatives who gave money to me. So far, so big. I swear. I didn't expect it because I'm already old to receive such but nevertheless I'm so grateful and promise to give back when I get a good pay too! This will be the first year that I won't share my new year's resolution because I think it would be the same as last year and I realized that sometimes you have to keep things to yourself or chosen people only. Pa-showbiz simpleng new year's resolution?! Duh!! Hahaha. Special people received my Christmas messages so expect that I won't be sending anymore this New Year. I think I sent 7 people. Yieee. I'm so kinikilig! <3 Maybe I'll focus on eating ( I gained weight so much but I will deprive myself from food sooner, not born to be fat okay hello work out ) or internet-ing this time. Hahaha! Too bad, I've read that ox won't be so lucky this 2015. It says no to lovelife and business. These 2 aspects that I've always been concerned of. Love and money!! HAHAHAHA. No comment. I believe in Feng sui ( because my eyes are singkit, not ) because I think I was really born a chinese in my past life because God knows how much I value money ( close friends know that!!! Yiee again! ) but our destiny depends on our decisions as well. We might not get what the heart wants ( selena gomez pa more haha ) but deep down, it's God's will. Maybe, I would just buy charms haha and pray! Sending my greetings of a happy new year to all of you, everyone I see from my reader's engine... USA, France, Philippines, UAE, Indonesia, Germany, UK and more, thank you for still visiting this blog even though I've been slacking off as a blogger, thank you!! Happy 2015! :)

Love,

Patricia <3

Lost Castles

Phoenix Olivia

How easily and quickly love turns to hate.

One glance. One word and what once was warm is now an iced knife cutting and tearing.

A winter wind blowing through the cavity left raw.

What has happened to us? We used to be young and full of love and play.

Now we’re old, hard, bitter and not yet 30.

My heart is ice. Your words are flame. Searing my soul. Making ashes of me. Ashes of us.

How did this happen. How did this become us?

I’m lost in the dark searching for a kind face, a kind word, a familiar touch. A safe place. Home.

But only shards glare back. Silence.

We have lost our way. Each other.

Both out in the cold. Exiled. Walking a lonesome road covered with broken memories and guilty fragments.

Where did we go wrong? How did we come to this? Where do I go? Where are you going?

My heart is hollow. Wretched. Hard. Hours of darkness plod on. I have no sight of the way out.

When was it that we lost our grace?

Can we find a way back? I want to find a way back.

How easily a castle can be destroyed. 

Hi readers! Sharing you what I got from thought catalog. As a person who overthinks at night, I read and read till I get sick of it. I always think of what does it take to become like this and this and that. I try to scrutinize every detail in my mind of which really matters in life. There will be days that you'll wake up happy and giddy and the other way around. Change is inevitable but I think it's not an excuse for things to go wrong. The best thing that oneself can consider is breathe. It will be fine sooner and later. The least thing to do this time is to worry. OKAY. So much for the drama because it's Christmas!! HAHA! I opted for a lumot color outfit. Moss green would always be part of my favorite colors in fashion because of Kate Moss. HAAHAHAHHA. Hey, i'm joking!!! HAHAAHA but seriously, it's really true. Now, i'm  so addicted to gray and silver. Can I marry a color? Will you be my color? The one who will add color in my life? AAHHAHAAH. The real drama is... I have a big fat face like please big fat no. Walang kakaen!!!! :( That's why I hate vacations!!!!!!!!!!! LOL. Merry Christmas!!!! In 2 days, yes woops!!!

Love,

Patricia <3

Christmas wishlist 2014

Hiii! Finally found my time to have a sit and face the screen to blog again! I'm so happy!! :) This time, I will share the things that I want to get this Christmas even though I already got some of them. Thank you!!! I think the best thing that you can do to the person you love is just to ask them what they really want so that they won't get disappointed. Being spontaneous is nice but I now prefer to fulfill someone's wish. So here it goes!! :D

  Just anything in chanel please my Lord ( I could be this girl if I see a chanel store in front of me, I call it public display of fash obsession) , Iphone 6 or 6 plus another pls pls,  new black bag pls ( any brand but if I'd insist, Celine pls pls ), i love barbie just any!!! and huhu this is a must for me, apple headset was broken :( and you wouldn't want to see my charger as well :(( Im so sad :(( Just realized how pretty my gift to Shaira's debut last time i want the same color as well pls, kate spade keds... i'll cry if I don't get to have or save money for this next year. I'll think I was punished for my lifetime haha pls. Mac lipstick!!! :( I always tell myself that yeah gotta starve myself to get one but it's hard... so cozy. OKAY but in the end I wish to apply what I've learned from my business course especially finance :( better save money so that my father and I won't argue and my future self will thank me. Excuse the you part, whoever gets it, so be it. HAHAHA! Lastly, happiness. I realized that we all have different happiness in life. For others, they will be happy to get clothes but for me, receiving eye brow make ups and lipstick is everything. Again, my sizes are... 9 in shoes ( size 7 in american size ) 27 in waistline huhu haha ( monkey?! lol ) and medium!Thanks thanks. I like strawberry flavored stuff. HAHA. Thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu <3 :* Merry Christmas!!!!!! Love you all! 

I is the start of everything

I pressed my ring finger to start this with "I". I was too hesitant because it's not good as an introduction. 

You could step on the stage by a sound, quotation or a song. You know what's the saddest part about writing or even living?

It when a rule exists. Sometimes, you guide yourself with it but luckily are those who can. If there's a classification about two people, I would always be the uncommon one.

I have different opinion from things and beliefs. If I don't like something today, I don't think I can adore it for the rest of the days.

I hate people. I have high expectations from the books and movies that I have read and watched. If I like you, be good.

"Your main issue is trust." How could you trust someone without knowing everything what's running inside his neurons? 

I would insist to find how someone spends his bills and saves for the future use. I will be childish if someone likes what I hate.

It's theoretically amazing when history repeats itself like how are you going to take risk if you know it wouldn't work just like before.

But what I have realized that it's never wrong to start with, "I" because I'm the only one who knows what's best for myself. 

Trust starts with oneself too. If we didn't trust ourselves, we can never appreciate somebody's existence. 

  Hahaha! Here's a simple drama as the raindrops tickle my ears. We've been experiencing bed weather for the past few days so please, go away Ruby. We don't like you here! :P Thanks for dropping by! Stay safe.

Love,

Patricia  <3

Reasons why this friendship will last forever

  It was our 4th Annual Accounting Congress held at Enchanted Kingdom last November 23, 2014. For those who are curious about what are we doing in this event, it's a seminar where accounting or business students are gathered and the best speakers give advices and answer questions about our the-struggle-is-real moments in school. It's my 2nd time of attending this seminar so thank you Lord. :D

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     I already told this in my blog several times before that God knows how much I'm thankful that he answered my prayers before I enter college. I can still remember what I exactly said, "Sana po yung barkada. Yung marami. Yung masaya. Sana may isang beki. Tapos atleast may makaclose ako na boys or what. Sana po tropa tropa chill at yung balance ang buhay na hindi puro aral. Lord kayo na po bahala." Then he gave me these people. God is really good. :) I wonder what he'll give me in the future... hahaha. I understand why things aren't the same as before. God knows how much demanding I am so yeah, I don't mind waiting for the right guy as long as he is good looking and rich. I can wait!! HAHAHAHAH. Just kidding,

1. We are all different

  They say for you to get along with someone or people, you better have similarities and things in common. I don't think it's really true because what I've realized is we are all different. Ang alam ko lang is lahat kami baliw. Boom panes. Boom bading si Monie!!! :))))

2. Everyone cooperates

  

   When we're together, it's either we accomplish things at the possible fastest way or we didn't finish anything. LOL. 

3. We talk all things under the sun without hiya hiya

  Yes this is so true for us. We always talk about the current news and express our own opinions about it. We also talk about random things. I don't know if it's still necessary to share it here but just think of the feces and more. Yup. HAHAH.

4. We value money a lot

  I never brought food for lunch in high school and this college pa talaga nauso sa amin. Haha! Perks of being an Accountancy student lol

5. We are bully people

  WE ARE. Be ware of us. Hihihi. Bullying is actually bad that's why I feel bad rn. :( Monie and I are like pag may nakakasalubong na gets nyo na, "Friend crush mo!" Hahahahaha. And also, "Friend, bestfriend mo!" Alam na this, right?

6. Everybody's crazy

   I'll rank them as crazy but I can't rank how close I am to them. For me the craziest is... Almira! Ala basta kung ano ano nalalaman nyan. Hahahaha! Monie is the second. Bading kasi yan, alam nyo ba?? Sana informed kayo hahahahaha. Love u bes! Glesh is the third one. Si Glesh, pasimple lang yan magpatawa. Sa lahat ng joker, siya yung natural. Basta pag si Glecie nakasama mo, mauutas ka. Hahahaha. Joice is the next one na laging lipad ang utak at isa sa mga taong mahirap makontento especially sa buhok. Haha! Tapos pati ang mag GFs. kapag may pinagtatawanan habang nagsasagot or something. Ahihihi. XD Last but not the least, Mattiaz!! LOL. He's that kind of friend you'll see a comment in your instagram post at 4 am hahaha, what is adik sa dota. Lol, we miss you Bes!! Natatawa ako sa pagdedescribe sa kanilang lahat. Lol, love you guys!

7. Leaving behind isn't an option

8. Sharing is not a must, it's automatic.

   Pagkain mo, pagkain ng lahat. 

9. Not an ordinary everyday

  Hindi nakakasawa gawin ang mga bagay kapag sila ang kasama tulad ng tumawa. HAHAHAHA.

10. Adventures make us closer

  More trips to come mga bes, love you all mwa. Haha

11. Challenge in studies

  Bakit po ang tatalino nila. I feel so Moron when I'm with them. T_T Mga bes, I'm so thankful to have you all in my life. I always look forward in going to school everyday just to be with you all and to study and laugh about life. Thank you :) I love you all. No more long messages here pero alam ko na swerte natin because we found each other and I know for the coming years kapag tayong lahat ay may work na and successful, alam ko mas malayo pa ang mararating natin. I love you guys. Salamat seryoso. 

Love,

Patricia <3