Year ender

     Hiiii readers! Well, obviously this will be my last blogpost for 2014! I can't believe it that in few hours we have to face another year of wonderful life. It's December 31 and if you're currently working on the office, ah! You'll have premium on your payroll and it's where the accountants do the adjusting entries for the ending inventory! OMG. HAHAHA. Here's what I wore last Christmas. We usually celebrate in my father's side since birth haha! Afterwards we go to Soro-soro Ibaba where the team Bagui mostly live! Hint: In few months, we'll move out to that place so right now I'm savoring Sta. Rita's neverending traffic. Lol. Couldn't be more thankful to all the relatives who gave money to me. So far, so big. I swear. I didn't expect it because I'm already old to receive such but nevertheless I'm so grateful and promise to give back when I get a good pay too! This will be the first year that I won't share my new year's resolution because I think it would be the same as last year and I realized that sometimes you have to keep things to yourself or chosen people only. Pa-showbiz simpleng new year's resolution?! Duh!! Hahaha. Special people received my Christmas messages so expect that I won't be sending anymore this New Year. I think I sent 7 people. Yieee. I'm so kinikilig! <3 Maybe I'll focus on eating ( I gained weight so much but I will deprive myself from food sooner, not born to be fat okay hello work out ) or internet-ing this time. Hahaha! Too bad, I've read that ox won't be so lucky this 2015. It says no to lovelife and business. These 2 aspects that I've always been concerned of. Love and money!! HAHAHAHA. No comment. I believe in Feng sui ( because my eyes are singkit, not ) because I think I was really born a chinese in my past life because God knows how much I value money ( close friends know that!!! Yiee again! ) but our destiny depends on our decisions as well. We might not get what the heart wants ( selena gomez pa more haha ) but deep down, it's God's will. Maybe, I would just buy charms haha and pray! Sending my greetings of a happy new year to all of you, everyone I see from my reader's engine... USA, France, Philippines, UAE, Indonesia, Germany, UK and more, thank you for still visiting this blog even though I've been slacking off as a blogger, thank you!! Happy 2015! :)

Love,

Patricia <3

Lost Castles

Phoenix Olivia

How easily and quickly love turns to hate.

One glance. One word and what once was warm is now an iced knife cutting and tearing.

A winter wind blowing through the cavity left raw.

What has happened to us? We used to be young and full of love and play.

Now we’re old, hard, bitter and not yet 30.

My heart is ice. Your words are flame. Searing my soul. Making ashes of me. Ashes of us.

How did this happen. How did this become us?

I’m lost in the dark searching for a kind face, a kind word, a familiar touch. A safe place. Home.

But only shards glare back. Silence.

We have lost our way. Each other.

Both out in the cold. Exiled. Walking a lonesome road covered with broken memories and guilty fragments.

Where did we go wrong? How did we come to this? Where do I go? Where are you going?

My heart is hollow. Wretched. Hard. Hours of darkness plod on. I have no sight of the way out.

When was it that we lost our grace?

Can we find a way back? I want to find a way back.

How easily a castle can be destroyed. 

Hi readers! Sharing you what I got from thought catalog. As a person who overthinks at night, I read and read till I get sick of it. I always think of what does it take to become like this and this and that. I try to scrutinize every detail in my mind of which really matters in life. There will be days that you'll wake up happy and giddy and the other way around. Change is inevitable but I think it's not an excuse for things to go wrong. The best thing that oneself can consider is breathe. It will be fine sooner and later. The least thing to do this time is to worry. OKAY. So much for the drama because it's Christmas!! HAHA! I opted for a lumot color outfit. Moss green would always be part of my favorite colors in fashion because of Kate Moss. HAAHAHAHHA. Hey, i'm joking!!! HAHAAHA but seriously, it's really true. Now, i'm  so addicted to gray and silver. Can I marry a color? Will you be my color? The one who will add color in my life? AAHHAHAAH. The real drama is... I have a big fat face like please big fat no. Walang kakaen!!!! :( That's why I hate vacations!!!!!!!!!!! LOL. Merry Christmas!!!! In 2 days, yes woops!!!

Love,

Patricia <3

Christmas wishlist 2014

Hiii! Finally found my time to have a sit and face the screen to blog again! I'm so happy!! :) This time, I will share the things that I want to get this Christmas even though I already got some of them. Thank you!!! I think the best thing that you can do to the person you love is just to ask them what they really want so that they won't get disappointed. Being spontaneous is nice but I now prefer to fulfill someone's wish. So here it goes!! :D

  Just anything in chanel please my Lord ( I could be this girl if I see a chanel store in front of me, I call it public display of fash obsession) , Iphone 6 or 6 plus another pls pls,  new black bag pls ( any brand but if I'd insist, Celine pls pls ), i love barbie just any!!! and huhu this is a must for me, apple headset was broken :( and you wouldn't want to see my charger as well :(( Im so sad :(( Just realized how pretty my gift to Shaira's debut last time i want the same color as well pls, kate spade keds... i'll cry if I don't get to have or save money for this next year. I'll think I was punished for my lifetime haha pls. Mac lipstick!!! :( I always tell myself that yeah gotta starve myself to get one but it's hard... so cozy. OKAY but in the end I wish to apply what I've learned from my business course especially finance :( better save money so that my father and I won't argue and my future self will thank me. Excuse the you part, whoever gets it, so be it. HAHAHA! Lastly, happiness. I realized that we all have different happiness in life. For others, they will be happy to get clothes but for me, receiving eye brow make ups and lipstick is everything. Again, my sizes are... 9 in shoes ( size 7 in american size ) 27 in waistline huhu haha ( monkey?! lol ) and medium!Thanks thanks. I like strawberry flavored stuff. HAHA. Thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu <3 :* Merry Christmas!!!!!! Love you all! 

I is the start of everything

I pressed my ring finger to start this with "I". I was too hesitant because it's not good as an introduction. 

You could step on the stage by a sound, quotation or a song. You know what's the saddest part about writing or even living?

It when a rule exists. Sometimes, you guide yourself with it but luckily are those who can. If there's a classification about two people, I would always be the uncommon one.

I have different opinion from things and beliefs. If I don't like something today, I don't think I can adore it for the rest of the days.

I hate people. I have high expectations from the books and movies that I have read and watched. If I like you, be good.

"Your main issue is trust." How could you trust someone without knowing everything what's running inside his neurons? 

I would insist to find how someone spends his bills and saves for the future use. I will be childish if someone likes what I hate.

It's theoretically amazing when history repeats itself like how are you going to take risk if you know it wouldn't work just like before.

But what I have realized that it's never wrong to start with, "I" because I'm the only one who knows what's best for myself. 

Trust starts with oneself too. If we didn't trust ourselves, we can never appreciate somebody's existence. 

  Hahaha! Here's a simple drama as the raindrops tickle my ears. We've been experiencing bed weather for the past few days so please, go away Ruby. We don't like you here! :P Thanks for dropping by! Stay safe.

Love,

Patricia  <3